Today I had one of those moments of tranquility and clarity that are sometimes rare for a mom to have in the hustle and bustle of our everyday lives (and no my children were not asleep when it happened). It was very much noisy and they were right next to me.
My husband and I took the kids out for a dinner favorite of theirs. (teriyaki chicken and rice at the mall) Don’t ask. ANYway, while we were eating I couldn’t help but notice everyone with the shopping bags buzzing around, walking and talking with friends and family. It felt like Christmas. It’s sometimes hard to feel in the spirit of things when you get no snow and the weather is in the 70’s and 80’s through a lot of your winter. We have a few cold days…which for us is in the 60’s. Sad, I know. Since I was feeling the spirit of Christmas I quietly said to Patrick, so the kids wouldn’t hear, “Hey, want to go see the light show at the new mall? Maybe visit you know who?” He nodded and said, “Sure.”
Off we went. We got there right on time. The show had started. They had this huuuuuuuge tree all lit up and some smaller trees around it. The music is playing and there are light’s shining on the buildings all around us. All the lights are flashing in beat with the music. Aryanna and I were bouncing around to the beat. I had her on my shoulders and Patrick was holding Jordyn. We moved closer and just stood there. It was really beautiful.
There was something about being there in that moment with them that made me feel like there is no place I’d rather be right then. For about 10 minutes I had no troubles in life, only peace and happiness. I realized that I focused on all the woes in my life in the past so much so that I forgot about a lot of the joys in life.
Just as quickly as I found my peace, it was taken away, not by the children, but when the show stopped. The lights came on. People scattered like roaches do when you flick the light on them, bumping and pushing their way through like the stores weren’t going to be there. <SIGH>
Have you had a moment of clarity lately about your life or maybe life in general?
I took Avery to the new mall lights show and it was so nice we really enjoyed it UNTIL like you said it was over my god people are SO rude! they rushed away like they were giving out free gifts! crazy but i am glad we went it was nice! we went on the opening night november 22nd